Sunday’s Coming

Wow! It’s been 4 years since I’ve taken time to sit down and write or should I say ramble a blog. I have so many thoughts that come to mind all the time but I let them pass as quickly as they come in my mind. I’ve decided to do better and write more, get my feelings out more, maybe even touch someone’s life more. So if you can deal with a WHOLE lot of rambling nonsense follow me, talk with me, heck teach me lol! Here goes what’s been going through this mind of mine ALL day! Bare with me I promise there will be a point. 

Here’s to another put a smile on your face Friday! You see (as if most of y’all don’t know) Friday’s hit a LOT differently for me than they use to. Most people wake up with all the Friday excitement and then there’s me, waking up to the dread of Friday and what memories I’ll have to mask today.  To realize it’s been yet another week added to the count of when my world got flipped, turned upside down (65 weeks to be exact but who else is counting.) I mean don’t get me wrong I don’t hate Friday’s, cause I need the weekend just as much as the next guy, but I don’t look forward to the memories that pop in my head each and every one that rolls around. 65 weeks and, the hurt and the scars are just as fresh as if it happened yesterday. You see that Friday caused me to question God. I felt so far from Him I couldn’t pray or even pick up my Bible. After I got over myself I felt completely ashamed, He had not forsaken me or Wesley. He had actually begun Wesley’s healing process. When I think about my Friday, I think of another Friday that happened over 2,000 years ago. Their despair was far worse than my despair ever was. Here’s a excerpt from a famous sermon given by Rev S.M. Lock ridge and it always gives me chills when I hear it.

“It’s Friday
Jesus is praying
Peter’s a sleeping
Judas is betraying
But Sunday’s comin’

It’s Friday
Pilate’s struggling
The council is conspiring
The crowd is vilifying
They don’t even know
That Sunday’s comin’

It’s Friday
The disciples are running
Like sheep without a shepherd
Mary’s crying
Peter is denying
But they don’t know
That Sunday’s a comin’

It’s Friday
The Romans beat my Jesus
They robe him in scarlet
They crown him with thorns
But they don’t know
That Sunday’s comin’

It’s Friday
See Jesus walking to Calvary
His blood dripping
His body stumbling
And his spirit’s burdened
But you see, it’s only Friday
Sunday’s comin’

It’s Friday
The world’s winning
People are sinning
And evil’s grinning

It’s Friday
The soldiers nail my Savior’s hands
To the cross
They nail my Savior’s feet
To the cross
And then they raise him up
Next to criminals

It’s Friday
But let me tell you something
Sunday’s comin’

It’s Friday
The disciples are questioning
What has happened to their King
And the Pharisees are celebrating
That their scheming
Has been achieved
But they don’t know
It’s only Friday
Sunday’s comin’

It’s Friday
He’s hanging on the cross
Feeling forsaken by his Father
Left alone and dying
Can nobody save him?
Ooooh
It’s Friday
But Sunday’s comin’

It’s Friday
The earth trembles
The sky grows dark
My King yields his spirit

It’s Friday
Hope is lost
Death has won
Sin has conquered
and Satan’s just a laughin’

It’s Friday
Jesus is buried
A soldier stands guard
And a rock is rolled into place

But it’s Friday
It is only Friday
Sunday is a comin’!”

You see they didn’t know Sunday was coming, so no matter how down I get or how hopeless I feel I can remember that my Sunday is coming. I don’t know when but I know it is. It might be Friday and YES everything may be in total chaos or just simply a complete HOT-MESS but remember Sundays coming and God always keeps His promises. 

Xoxo xoxo 

Tiff 

Even in the darkest of times.

So this may be a totally random blog for some but I  still felt the need to share.

Last night I decided I needed to go down to the farm to see the baby chicks that had just been delivered that day. I did what I needed to do there and Wesley had a few more odd and ins to complete before heading home, so I decided to walk home. Wesley offered a flash light but the moonlight was so bright that I told him I’d be fine. It was so peaceful and the moonlight was so comforting and relaxing after a long day of work and then Bible School. It was such a calming peace, until the moonlight soon faded behind trees, suddenly that peace was no longer there instead it was darkness and a little bit of uncomfortable fear. Every sound made me a little more uneasy, where was my light? I uneasily continued walking into the dark, then there it was a break only for a moment in the trees and my light guided my way again reminding me that it had never truly left me I just couldn't see it as good. I finally arrived safely home, and turned to see the path I had just wandered. Just like our walk with the Lord there will be days when His light shines so bright and leads our way, but then there will also be days when we can’t see His light as brightly, remember in those days He is still there walking the path before us guiding the way with His light even when we can’t see it, even in the darkest of times His light is still there. It is truly awesome and amazing how many different ways God talks to us, we simply need to take time to be still, and quiet and simply listen.

May God bless each one of you!
Xoxo
Tiffany

Agape Love

Within the last couple of months I have witness true humbleness and true Agape love. I only hope that witnessing this kind of humbleness and love will help me further grow so that one day I can do the same. 

This day in time it is so very hard not to hold those grudges or be cold to someone that we "feel" as wronged us. But when we really analyze the situation have they really wronged us?? I mean after all everyone's entitled to an opinion and just because everyone doesn't agree does it really mean they are wrong? We each have to answer for ourselves not the actions of others, and let's be honest, people have different struggles with different things, and no one handles a problem the same.  So instead of being so judge mental maybe we should be a little more understanding. 

We as Christians are looked at so hard this day in time, people are waiting for one slip up, one moment when we break, when we fail, when we probably don't look very Christian like. Well guess what it's gonna happen, being a Christian doesn't give us a free pass from sin! It gives us FORGIVENESS from our sins. We are still sailing the same sea that everyone is sailing, the only exception is we have the best Captain ever guiding us through! 

We are all so worried about knowing all the details in a situation, maybe instead of worry about knowing all the details we (yes I say we because I'm just as guilty as the next) fall to our knees and pray. 

In Bible study last night we were asked a question the question was....

  *** In the last 7 days how many Gospel conversation have you had? I must say I had to hang my head with what I knew my answer was. My eyes were also open to the fact that if we do not do this we are simply reaping the benefits of the Lord and not passing them on to others, which is basically stealing from God. We are suppose to share the gospel to help advance His kingdom not keep it to ourselves. ***

This so ends my ramblings... most of  you know that I'm not good with putting things into words. But this has been on my heart lately.. <3 

Xoxoxo Tiffany

" Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior"

You're gonna miss this!!

One day, late nights, farm & little league will be a thing of the past, and you will miss it! It's ball session once again and the craziness has begun!  Tonight once we got home, it was time to get baths, wash uniforms and make sure I got them in the dryer before bed, study spelling words and get the kids settled down in bed. I was transferring the clothes from the washer to the dryer when I realized I hadn't had supper. So at 12:01 am (that's a whole new day)  I took my leftovers out of the microwave and began to eat in a quiet house. That's when I began to think and then I realized that this is all so worth it and that in years to come this will all be but a memory and the long nights won't even matter then. My kids will have their memories and that's all that matter. As I checked on the kids as they were sleeping before I laid down, I heard the sweetest giggles coming from Landen as he laid there sleeping. I wondered what he was dreaming that had him so tickled! So my point in this ongoing blog session is to not let the little things stress you, because on day you will want to be up at midnight washing ball uniforms, you will want to be at the ball games until late, You'll  miss the wild and craziness of it all and long for just one more moment in time to do it all over!! Life's too short to complain about it all ( and believe me I do my far share). From now on I'll take in every wild and crazy moment!

Don't blink and take every minute in!!

My baby boy needed me today!! I mean I know he needs me everyday BUT he really needed me today. He got that nasty stomach bug that is going around! As I was home with him watching him sleep and just talking to him, I realized that I had lost 7 years, they were gone! So I am writing this to all new mothers some advice that I have found over the last 12 years and 3 kids.

I know that some of your nights are probably long and you are probably longing for just a couple more hours of sleep, make this your bonding time. Sing to your baby, rock your baby just take every minute in. Because believe me if you do blink they will be grown! Capture every moment on film (and I'm not saying this because I'm a photographer and that's my job) I'm saying that so you'll have those memories to look back on in years to come. Back to the rocking (this is something I think I miss the most) rock that baby every chance you get! I rocked all of mine but I probably mentally recorded each time with Noah simply because I knew he was the last. I had people tell me that they rocked theirs too and if they would have known the last time they rocked would have been the last, they would have rocked forever. I thought they were crazy I knew he would want me to rock him forever. Guess what the day came when the words I thought I'd never hear came out of his mouth.. "Mom you don't have to rock me tonight, I'm 6 now and I'm too big." Those words crushed my heart and soul! So ladies rock forever while you can! I do think rocking gave me more comfort than him.. I knew I was needed.

All children are different and a precious gift from God! Take every moment in ladies and cherish it always!!! Cry if you need to when they cry and you don't know why, pray then too. God entrusted you with this amazing gift, it's ok to turn to Him when you have not a clue what to do!

Love to all!!!

 

Elf on the shelf breakfast

The kids absolutely love Jake's North Pole Breakfast. It's the one time of year they can get away with eating Oreo's for breakfast! He even brought them P.J's to wear while they wait for Santa <3!!

I think their elf loves them! ;)

Santa Ready!

We hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas!!

Why I took electronics from my kids.

I caved and went against my better judgement and all my kids got kindles, well that was ok. It just consumed their every minute of everyday. Then we caved and allowed our daughter to get a cell phone. Harmless right? WRONG! It was all she wanted to do, and that social media it even scares the daylights out of me at times. Like when someone sends you a friend request one FB and you have no mutual friends and they "live" a million miles away. My family has always told me I look on the worst side of everything and that I'm scared of my own shadow but I like to think of it as allows weighing what could or could not happen. Ok back to my blogging. So all was merry and well until I realized I had electronic robots. Nothing matter, except that phone or kindle. Then poof they were gone. They think I'm the meanest mom ever! But I'm trying to make them see the reason I took them.

1. Read your Bible and talk with the Lord
2. Each of you have a beautiful imagination use it!
3. Look out that window at the beautiful world that God create just for you, go play and explore.
4. Ride a bike. My most favorite childhood memories is riding a bike.
5. Board games yes I said it grab and game and sit down with the family and make memories.
6. I'll play you in a game of Mario maybe once a week ( I'm trying not to have them addicted to gaming systems now)
7. That subject your struggling in study more.
8. Sports ( get out there and so your best and be part of a team!)

So the whole going against my better judgement and struggle for weeks with thinking I'm such a horrible parent for taking what I had gave them, actually helped me! My kids my not see it now but I hope that one day they will know it was all out of love. After all there is some scary stuff on the World Wide Web that I don't want my kids stumbling on. Call me crazy if you want. Happy Saturday and God Bless!